Currently Listening Who We Are Endlessly see related

im still alive....

im still alive........

Currently Listening Let It Go By Paul Colman holding onto you see related

im finally done with this year!!! thank you JESUS

my ulcerative colitis is getting better. last night i cried my eyes out before GOD and sought HIM for my healing. its on the way!! also i just feel like new before HIM. HE did an amazing thing inside of me. i havent felt this free in a long time. HIS love just washed over me.

me and tiff are still doin great. GOD is teaching me alot about being the kind of man she needs. GOD is making things new in our relationship. ive never felt so close to her.

things are kind of up in the air right now about college for next year, where to live, what i should do musically, where i need to be. GOD has to make sense of it soon, but im trusting in HIM. i just want what HE wants. my heart is starting to change and things are looking different in so many areas. the only sure thing right now is me and tiff. everything else isnt making much sense. but JESUS, lead the way!! im following.

thats basically it for now.

Holding On To You

All I want is you, all I need is you
And I do believe what you say is true
But I don't understand
Why it's taken me so long to know

Well I tried to be everything I need
But a broken heart was all that I achieved
Still I don't understand
Why it's taken me so long to know

You never change
Your love remains
Oh God I'm holding onto you
When I'm afraid
Still your love remains
Oh God I'm holding onto you

I just want to be, with you every day
Never let you down, never walk away
But I know if I do, you will be waiting for me

so its been a while since ive updated. things are goin good. GOD is still teaching me alot. there are new yearnings in my heart starting to form. just to reach out to people with the love of JESUS, to lead worship at church and bring the passion JESUS has given me to a mediocre church. i was kinda flustered on easter becuz my pastor basically told me to sit out and the night before i watched what JESUS did for me at calvary and all i wanted to do was worship HIM just unashamed, maybe even dance before HIM. i swear people need to lighten up.

still trying to figure out what is happening with my life. im holding onto those promises that JESUS has given me. im not letting satan steal those from me. moving to youngstown doesnt look like an option right now, just becuz some things are happening up here that i need to be here for and to stay at ups for. i have the chance to get some help for my ulcerative colitis from this doctor that cured himself of chrones. so that is a huge answer to prayer. which by the way if you can, keep me in prayer for wisdom for what to do and to make right decisions about where to go and also for GOD to heal my ulcerative colitis, i just want it gone. and i know that JESUS took that disease to the cross.

tiff got her hair dyed. haha. i swear she looks like my blonde goddess! ahha. i havent seen her blonde in so long. probably the first time i met her up until homecoming that year was when she was blonde. but me and tiff are doin great. i couldnt ask for a better girlfriend to be in my life. JESUS knew that i would need her here with me. i cant even thank GOD enough for her. what was wierd was how her dad even said that we have such a strong love. he never says anything about us. haha. so that was kool. tiff, i love you! its just so hard making decisions now too becuz i have to think about both me and tiff becuz there is definitely a GOD-given future there. but i know that JESUS has the best for both of us. baby just hang in there with me.

GOD spoke to me yesterday through verses coming to mind during worship. i was so boggeled down with the weight of everything goin on. and HE just spoke love into my life agian. it was amazing. but aight im done. probably no one will read this. but oh well. i just needed to put this down. cya guys later.

Currently Listening World Through Your Eyes By Reuben Morgan see related

learning alot about life. things arent the way that i thought theyd be by now. i just want to be in y-town already. but i just have to finish school and maybe, just maybe this summer that will come true. things really open your eyes too. i just realize that i dont have much of a life. my band and tiff take up most of it. school and work take some of it too. all week i live for the weekend, waiting to spend time with tiff. and on saturday i have band practice like almost all day, and then almost every sunday, tiff works. it just hurts not bein able to spend any time with her. but JESUS has made ways for us to be together still. i wouldnt trade her for the world. hopefully soon this vicious and boring cycle will end and ill actually be doing something. i just want to be able to see tiff more than like a couple hours on the weekends. it just tears at me becuz i just want to be there with her. everything is fine. i just wish we had more time. that. im doin my best. tiff i love you!! i hope you know that. im doin my best. hopefully soon things will change.

other than that, JESUS is just doin some serious inventory on me. i know i keep sayin it. but things in my spirit are changing. im beginning to have more faith. and HE is becoming more real. ive finally made up my mind to follow HIM completely. to not be wavered by anyone or anything. just HIM alone. HE's just proven HIMself over and over as DADDY and HIS heartbeat keeps on calling my name. it's an amazing thing. I'm just following HIM and relaxing under HIS wing until the school year is over and where i can start over. JESUS just give me patience.

Reuben morgan - Waiting Here

Everything will work out
Everything will work out
For Your glory
I know You’ll use it all

Fall upon Your mercy
Call upon Your kindness
Will You come to me
And search my heart again

And I’m on my knees waiting here for You
In Your holy place
And my heart is home
In Your courts oh Lord
How I long for You

Everything will work out
Everything will work out
When I see You
I’ll know I’ll understand